Sleeping Beauty

FUCK. These past fews days I haven't getting the sleep I should be getting. I've been sleeping at 5am or later this week. It just sucks cause when you're up this late and for this long, you tend to think.
There's too many possibilities. I hate thinking about the "what if's, should've, could've, and would've's."

Bleh, another day and another rant by yours truely. More Nip/Tuck now. Seems that's the only thing keeping me "sane" these past couple days.


Ps. Guys are still scumbags. I still need someone to prove me wrong. Thanks.

Happy Holidays!!!

So, let's see...

MONDAY: I finally got to see some of my high school friends that I hadn't seen since...uh, GRADUATION. Hahaha. Weird. Got caught up with a couple people. It was chill, we were initially supposed to go to Hooter's, cause that's one of "our" restaurants; but I wasn't really a part of that. We ended up going to Chipotle, which was fine by me cause it was better; taste wise, and cheaper. Hahah. It was Veronica, Sandra, Linda, Adrian, Miranda, and I. Too bad Cassandra and Adam couldn't go. Then it would've been a super band reunion. Oh welps. After lunch, I headed to the Glad Rags warehouse to pick up one of Natalie's American Apparel sweater to give to her as a gift for Christmas since I was on a super tight budget. Hahah. I help the guys out a bit and just went home and kicked it.

TUESDAY: Adam finally hit me up to hang out!! OMFG, I was way stoked. For those of you that don't know, Adam is my bestfriends since 9th grade. :] We were supposed to go to the mall, but he figured out that he didn't have enough gas or money to get there and go shopping. So I just picked him up and he went to go buy plugs at some jewlery store. After that we drove around and went to go see if Veronica was at work, because we wanted to make sure if she had borrowed Nip/Tuck Season 4. After that, Adam figured out that the plugs he bought was the same size as the one he got. So we went back and asked if he could trade it...he didn't end up doing it. We kicked it at his house after for awhile and waited 'till Sandra, Veronica's sister, got home so we could pick up Season 4. We went, and then I just dropped him off and went home. It was a chill day, since I got to see my bestfriend that I hadn't seen in FOREVER. Man, I missed him. Hahahha. After that, I hit up Chuck and met him at the Puente Hills Mall. I ended up buying a peacot there. DOPE. Makes me even girlier. Hahaha. After that, we visited Art and Martin at Hot Topic. When it got around to 8:30, Chuck and I left so we could go get my purse that he owed me; It was a Volcom purse, that I think doubles as a messenger bag. After doing what we needed to do, we headed to Buffalo Wild Wings to meet up everyong for the dinner. Hhahah, it was fun having everyone there. I think our waiter liked me. As I walked out, I said "bye" to him because he had remembered my name. He wanted to shake my hand, and he ended up giving me a hug. Hahaha. After, everyone was at the front of BWW, and we did our White Elephant: I had no idea what the fuck that was up until that day. I ended up getting a picture frame with a free photo from David. -__- Hahahha. It took forever for the game to finish, but we did finish. Then...a photo op, like always.

We STILL roll deep, niggaz!

White Elephant

We all love plaid?
We gotz mad hops
Group hug. :D

WEDNESDAY: Christmas Eve. Uhh, not much to say. I watched Nip/Tuck all day that day. I got a visit from David and Cindy; they dropped off my Christmas present. :] I love them, favorite cousins hands down. And bestfriends.

THURSDAY: Uhh, like Christmas Eve, it was gate. I didn't really want anything specific for Christmas, so this year was a bust. But whatevs. I'm not a materialistic girl so sa'll good! Again, I watched Nip/Tuck all day. Hahhaa. I ended up fighting with my sister which was fucking hilarious! That crazy bitch tried to hit me with a chair. I just laughed...what I usually do in situations like that. ;D After more then 6+ hours of Nip/Tuck finally went out. Chilled with Barry in DB. Pretty dope. Now, some more Nip/Tuck. I'm on season 2.

It's Cold!

So now it actually feels like winter in California. But I rather let it be cold than hot, for sure.

This weekend has been pretty good so far. Friday I went back to the warehouse to bring the American Apparel Hoodies there and have them organized. I got paid too!! After doing what I needed to get done, I went to the bank to deposit my check because I was at like $20. HAHAHAH. After that, I got some gas. It took me $25 instead of $17. :[ Oh welps. I then made my way to the glasshouse record store to pick up a ticket for December Decimation. After that, as I was heading back to the warehouse, I decided to stop at the Puente Hills Mall and check out the new Forever 21. I heard that it was 2 stories, it was huge, etc. It wasn't 2 stories, but it was HUGE. Hahah, I ended up shopping. ^_^ I ended up meeting up with Chuck, Justin, Sean, Juan, Debbie, Krista K, Matt, and Pfef. The weird thing was that I didn't know anyone was gonna go, and I called debbie to ask where the Forever 21 was by and that's when she told me that the guys were there. Hahah. Weird. After shopping, I was super hungry, so Chuck, Juan, and I went to Life Plaza to get some Pho. So great, considering that it's cold. kept me full and warm.
After eating, Juan, Chuck, and I just walked around the area. We even watched some azn's play Street Fighter IV. Hahahhahahahahahaha. It was pretty lame. After that, us three headed down to Cue and took some "Cue" pictures...the ghetto way. Hahah. Pictures will be up later.
Debbie ended up coming back to us, and we took some real Cue pictures. Debbie ended up leaving after the pictures, so Chuck, Juan, and I went to Shaniels to go to Morongo. Hahah. I lost 20bucks. :[ But whatevs, it's called gambling for a reason. I didn't get home 'till 5am. -_____-

Saturday woke up super sore and super tired. Prett much sucked asshole. I got ready at around 1-2 for December Decimation. I ended up going by myself but I met up with JP and hung out with him, Steven, and Tommy, the merch guy for WOP. Hahah. As the show went on I was getting more tired and annoyed. I'm so lucky to have guys watch my back during shows. Hahah. Oh man, I would've gotten killed. D: During the sets I hung out with Tyler and Logan and whoever was around there. I must say, the show was aight. But what do you expect for a show like that?! Rhetorical quesiton. Anywho, as the show ended, JP brought me some potato wedges from Buffalo Wild Wings. Whata sweetie. :P and that's when I called it a night. :]


I'm still sore from 2 days ago. :[ But i'll live...

You Put In, But You Get Nothing Back.

That's how it is usually with relations, and even friendships.
There's always one side that puts in more, and never ever gets the same amount in return, which sucks.

What is a bestfriend? Nowadays I really don't know.
Sad. What is a relationship?
Fuck fake friends. Fuck friends who flake. Fuck guy's who fuck you over. Fuck you ALL. and FUCK THE WORLD.


Anyways, this week has been pretty chill. All I've been doing is working with Glad Rags. Yesterday I went on a errand run for the guys to Fullerton to pick up some shirts. I ended up getting lost cause the place was fucking hidden. Hahah, I eventually found it. Let me tell ya, it's not fun to drive in the rain, let alone do errands, and getting in and out of your car. -__- Yesterday was a pretty long day. I didn't get home till almost 9, I think. That's because I took a little nap at the shop. I fell asleep to Snatch. Hahaha.

Today wasn't all that grand either. But luckily it wasn't raining. I decided to wear a skirt with no leggings. Big mistake. I drove to American Apparel again today to pick up our personal zip-up hoodies. One is missing, so I gotta go back again. I waited there for about 2-3hours. NOT DOPE. I got there around 3. Didn't leave till almost 6. And by that time, there was mad traffic. D: I spent 4 FUCKING HOURS in traffic. I didn't get home till 9ish. The 5south/710-Pasadena/10east/60east were ALL PACKED. It was fucking gay. My friend, Sergio, lives in East LA. I was ahead of him like about a mile, and he ended up getting to my house before I did. LAME. Anyways, I met him and his friends up at my house to go to a comedy show in Ontario. It was at the Improv. First experience at a comedy show, and it was really good. And free! Haha. Too bad I'm not 21, or else they wouldn't have gave us a hard time about me being underaged. Didn't leave Improv till about 12. And now, I'm gonna knock out. :D

Good Night.

"I Was Foolish To Have Thought I Could Catch You..."

"...stupid to have ever liked you." - Park

That line describes everything I'm thinking when it comes to relationships and the opposite sex.
So let's see...
The weather has gotten to what it's supposed to be, not fucking 90degree weather in the middle of November. Although rainy weather makes me all bleh, I'd still prefer it over the heat. Not much has gone on since school ended last week. I don't even know what the hell to do with myself during the day/nights; And it doesn't help that the weather's all sad looking. HAHAH.

Well, to recap this weekend:
Friday I picked up Franky, and both of us headed to The Green Turtle in Whittier for the Tiefighter show. We got there a tad late, when The Light Year was playing, but got to see most of their set. Both bands were really good. All the OC people left early because they wanted to "rage." Franky and I stayed for the entire show. This Time Next Year headlined, and they're not that dope. I've tried getting into them, three times already. Not my cup of tea. Anyways, this show ended way too damn early and I didn't want to call it a night at 11pm. So we, Franky and I, headed down to Tustin for Trevor's birthday party. As soon as we were about 10minutes away, I get a call from Billy saying that the party got raided. It was 11something, I think. We then just met up with some of the T-town kids, and kicked it for a bit. After about an hour of total awkward-ness, I wanted to leave and meet up with people that I felt more comfortable with. We met up with all the 21+year olds that went to the Dear Life show at In-n-Out, which was ironic because we had just came from the In-n-Out in Tustin. Super lame. We kicked it there till it closed, and they turned the lights off on us. Pretty chill, I must say.

Saturday was another gloomy day. I slept in, as usual, and got ready at around 4 to meet up with the Apostol's for the Dear Life show in Downey. The show was chill, another church show. Seen some of the kids from the night before's show. Hhahahah. It's weird, cause I feel super old at shows now...And I'm not even old. Geez. This night ended early as well. 2 bands dropped from the show. After packing up, we headed back home. I got home around 11ish. For some reason I've been wanting to be out lately. So I hit up Chuck and met up with him, Kris, Darrell, David, and Drea at Denny's and kicked it with them. We made friends with our waiter, and he ended up hating me by the end of our meal. Hahah. :D David and Drea left right after we ate. Kris, Darrell, Chuck, and I hung out at Denny's, while I watched them ride their bikes. Hahaha. Then after about half an hour, we called it a night since it was fucking freezing!

Sunday was my "lazy day." Sucked. I didn't go to sleep till about 6:30am. -____-
And as for today, I got up a couple hours later to help the guys from Glad Rags. As soon as I got there, they put me to work. I went on an errand run to DownTown LA to the American Apparel warehouse. Hahaha, the guy that helped me was super nice, and pretty cute in his own unique kinda way. As I was walking to my car, he actually called out and said bye. :] And he's from Kansas. LOL.

I Hate It.

I hate it when you're home, all day. It gives you way too much time to think about the past, present, and future. The what if's. It makes me sad to know that I'm 19, and never had a LEGIT relationship. I'm young, blah blah blah. But my mentallity at the moment is: I'm young, I should have fun. Live life with no regrets. And that's what I've been doing so far. I mean, I shouldn't have made some of the decisions I've made, but then again, I've learned from them. I don't regret anything. I think it's best when you don't dwell on the past.
But like my headline on Myspace: "I was foolish to have thought I could catch you, foolish to have ever liked you." - Park. You get what you deserve, and you deserve what you get. It's Karma.

-Nancy

Another Update.

So, like I said in the previous blog, I haven't been keeping up with this. I just haven't felt like writing much as of late. So let's see... I'll start recapping from when I can remember. Hahhaa.

Drea's birthday last week was pretty dope. I helped get everyone together for a SURPRISE birthday dinner at Buca in Brea. I was surprised to see some faces show up, since about half of them didn't confirm. Hahah. But all was good. The food, the conversations, and the surprises were awesome. Drea got a 100+ Betsy Johnson bag from David and I, a TomTom from David, a makeup Betsy Johnson bag from Natalie. I'm sure all those gifts were good enough for her, especially since she went to the Obey sale, along with everyone else but me, and got a new camera that day. Lucky bitch. Hahahhahaha. That night ended early, since we're all getting old and can't stay out late anymore. :P

The next day I got to sleep in. It was chill since it was a Saturday. I got ready to go out to the Grave Maker show at the Nitty Gritty in Rancho around 4ish because I had to go pick up Sergio all the way in Anaheim...So out of the way, but since gas is 1.70, it doesn't take much to fill up my tank. I left my house at 5pm, and boy am I glad I did that. There was sooo much traffic when we passed the 91W. The drive from the OC to Rancho took me less than half an hour. I was doing 80, because we were already late. Hahha. Grave Maker and Call to Preserve was prett good. The show ended way too early, before 10. So I just took Sergio and his friend back home. I got Taco Bell and hung out with Serg at his house and watched some vids online.



On Monday, I woke up early to go to school for my Final for French. Too bad when I was on my way, Drea was still sleeping. So after talking to her and telling her that we wouldn't make it, I went to work with the guys from Glad Rags. I actually worked. Hahhaha.
Wednesday I woke up at 6:20am for my actual Final for French since I didn't take it that Monday. I hope I did alright. :/ After school I went home and knocked out till 3pm. Good thing cause I wouldn't still be sleeping at around 5, and that would be the time I would have to be on my way to Natalie's to dye my hair. I did wake up and time, and left on time... too bad there was mad traffic. Ugh, I just sung along to my mooosiq. We finished my hair at around 8:30pm and decided to go to Olive Garden cause we were both hungry. We ordered the endless salad/breadsticks, and the spiniach-artichoke dip. That actually filled us up. Hahhaha. and it was less than 20 bucks!

WTF Is Up With Today's Youth?!

I know I haven't been keeping up with my daily posts, but I've been out of it. I was even thinking about deleting my blog, but I figured that it's better to keep it so I won't have to spam people's bulletins on Myspace. Hhahaha.

Well, to get to my point... I know that people make their own decisions, and I'm not one to judge, cause I don't like it when people judge me. But honestly, what's up with all these raves/ravers being so popular?! Honestly, not to start shit with ANYONE, but do you guys honestly think it's cool to wear BEADED-COlORFUL PLASTIC BRACELETS ALL THE WAY UP TO YOUR ELBOWS?! I hope this is just a short trend that will expire soon. It died once for a reason, and I don't get how it came back. Club kids should've just stuck with going to clubs, and not rave's. It really isn't that dope. Just sayin'.

And another thing, and again I'm not trying to start shit, I'm just speaking my mind, but why does it seem like being pregnant is the next cool thing?! There's so many people my age, even younger, who are fucking knocked up. USE A CONDOM. It really isn't that hard. You can get free condoms at your local clinic for God's sake. I don't think that people, who can barely take care of themselves, are capable of taking care of another human being, let alone a fucking baby!!
I'm just saying that people really need to think, cause obviously today's youth doesn't, which is really sad. This is why elders don't trust us. This is why you guys are called sluts/whores. You don't wanna be known as that girl who's pregnant and only pregnant.

My rant for the day.
Thank you, and goodbye.

<3

Thing's are looking up again.
This Winter/Spring is gonna be so intense for me. Hopefully I won't drop any of my classes or fail. *knocks on wood.

:] Good mood right now. Let's keep it that way.

P.S.

I cut myself shaving on Wednesday night. This is a picture of my cut on Friday. -__-


This picture was taken on Sunday. Yea, it looks like shit.

Thanksgiving Weekend

For the most part, Thanksgiving weekend was chill. Went by super slow, which is a good thing. hahaha. So, since I knocked out at 6pm on Thanksgiving, I slept at the right time to stay up all night to leave early for Black Friday shopping. My sister and I hit my two cousins, Cindy and David. We ended up going to the mall at about 4am. Waited in line at Forever 21 because they were passing out free scratchers that had a gift card for $300. Us four didn't get it. :[ But I did end up shopping. Whatevs. After the mall we went to Office Depot in Rosemead. HAHAHA, that line was fucking long, but it wasn't that bad. My cousin got a new printer for 25 bucks. I got blank CD's for 5. :D so tight. We ended up getting home like around 8-9ish and we all knocked out. I didn't wake up till 5pm, I think. Right when I woke up, we headed back to Cindy and David's house for Thanksgiving part 2, since we didn't celebrate with them. That night ended early as well.

The next day my mom, sister, and I woke up at 7am to go visit my father. They ended up moving him to Long Beach, which is way closer than Taft. I ended up driving, since my mom would've been more frustrated than me. We ended up getting lost for 3 fucking hours. So terrible. We ended up stopping at a Shell and asking the clerk. He was nice enough to help us, so we ended up buying a map for Torrance/Long Beach. HAHAHHAHA, that we will never use again. After figuring it all out, we got to the correctional facility, and it totally sucked. It was as if WE were the ones in there: they searched us, walked us to 3 different rooms, etc. At the one in Taft, they were a lot lenient and less strict. Maybe it's cause this one's in Long Beach. Ehhh. Later that night, I took my sister home and went to The Light Year show in Irvine. I ended up getting lost there cause Billy gave me wrong directions. -_____- The show was chill, and we all got to hang out afterwardw at In-n-Out.

After In-n-Out, I ended up going to visit Sergio, since it was on the way home. Hahah, I took him to Ralphs and Walgreens for his little brothers birthday card/balloon. ahhahaha. It was around 12ish when I went back to my sister's apartment. I ended up knocking the fuck out because I was way too tired.

On Sunday, I woke up at around 2ish. I watched tv for about an hour, ate some cereal, and started getting sleep again. I took a nap. HAHAHAH. I got up at 6 to get ready for Charles' birthday dinner that was down the street from my sister's apartment. I asked her to come along with me because I did't wanna feel awkward. Hahah. The food was good, but the lamest part was that EVERYONE left before the bill was paid. Honestly, wtf is that bull shit?! Ugh. Anyways, the bill got paid, we were short, but I put more than enough.

And that's my Thanksgiving weekend, not too exciting, but it was fun.